Gak ada yang istimewa hari ini. seperti biasa, ngantor “pagi-pagi” trus makan siang di luar kantor bareng temen2 kantor, gak tau kenapa hari ini cuaca panas bgt padahal semalem dini hari hujan lebat (01.15wib).  sambil kunjungan ke sekretariat pps-unpad di imam bonjol (kepikiran waktu dijalan), silaturahim sambil salam2an trus nanyain ijazah yang kabarnya udah turun dari rektorat. alhamdulillah…

keluar dari gedung sekretariat berasa hari ini lebih panas dari kemaren! terbesit pikiran buat pohon yang baru gw tanam 2 hari yang lalu di depan rumah [rampok minta dari dinas pertamanan di pinggir jalan]. tadi pagi kelihatan layu, mudah2an sore ini ada yang siram. (kepikiran di traffic-light).

akhirnya sampe juga lagi di kantor dengan layout “lemas” kayak abis minum obat flu. ini hari ngantuuuuuuk bgt! lihat suasana kantor yang udah mulai sumpek cuma bikin mual. akhirnya terpikir lagi kenapa gak coba merentangkan badan di mushollah sampai jam kerja habis?

pulang kantor, liat keadaan jalanan yang padat, mata capee, punggung pegal2, tiba2 ada pemandangan yang menarik perhatian di pinggir jalan! YA! tukang tanaman!! tanpa pikir panjang banting stir ke pinggir jalan “bang, pupuk kompos berapa satu karung? oke deh! saya ambil yang satu kilo aja!”  [dalam hati:] sialan! tukang tanaman terpengaruh juga sama fluktuasi dolar!!  yaa, mungkin saja tukang tanaman tadi mengikuti perkembangan IHSG di BEI pasca bangkrutnya Lehman Brothers! jarang bgt liat tukang tanaman gak nonton sinetron.

100 meter dari garasi, sambil melirik ke spion… YA AMPUN! kenapa ada monyet “mahluk kebon pisang” di belakang! [lalu mahluk tersebut berkata:] dull!! budeg lu yaa dari tadi gak liat klakson apahh? apa lu juga gak denger lampu sorot dari belakang?? kalo punya tilpun itu diangkat dong! jangan ditaroh di kuping aja!

[dalam hati:] yahh lupa! di laci dashboard! dengan spontan [uhuyy] meraba laci dashboard! HALLAH!! ada 8 miskol! 5 nomor gak penting dan 1 nomor hampir penting 3x, tanpa pikir panjang call-back 3x… akhirnya yang ke 4 sms permintaan maaf… hiks! [sori bos... sori dung2 pret... sori jeung...] suasana menjadi sunyi dan senyap… kayaknya ada yang ngambek, tapi gak masuk kategori masalah. mungkin aja mengikuti krisis keuangan global.

18.30wib di garasi, si monyet mahluk kebon pisang bilang katanya punya kepentingan, ujung-ujungnya ngajak makan di “kantin kejujuran” ayam bakarnya cikini yang makan-nya dibawah rel KRL, yang punya suara gak kalah heboh ama soto gerbrak!  —-sambil menguap akhirnya 3 jam menikmati pepesan kosong—-

22.40wib, akhirnya ketemu juga sama bantal! tapi perasaan gak enak, coba inget2…hallah ternyata pupuk kompos masih di bagasi, [dalam hati:] kayaknya pagi ini musti minta maap sama pohon, mana gak belum disiram… [renungan sebelum tidur menyatakan hari ini tidak ada hal yang menarik, tapi paranoia itu tetep gak hilang 13, 31, 22, dan 4 menjadi angka yang membuat sugesti menjadi paranoia. sampai kapan?]

1. I oversleep! its have never been completed. I had feels a best taste of too delicious pillow, I tries to re-compile the registry by regedit command but as becoming problem is the systems cannot be modified and there is no additional memory can be allocated for me by body programs.

2. I hit a stuck of the fu**in road-works, i get local area connections show limited or no connectivity, its means i must lookout of next shortcut / plan B.

3. I get runs-out of gasoline. I using the emergency power backup system and the dashboard say; gasoline is low.

4. I have a red-eyed, there is low virtual memory problem (maybe its shared)

5. I leave my phone on desktop. then i sing the cake songs! no phone… no phone i just want to be alone today (as usually)

6. I amazes sees the silent office. damn!  there is no bundles in my workbench. Oh God why i must be hunted today, give me a permits as a miracle tools tab, let me changes for today options.

(T,T) its better to shutdown

Have you ever felt frustrated trying to get the one you want to want you back? Have you ever felt like the cause was hopeless and there’s just nothing you can do to win their heart?

Such frustrations are common. All human beings are subject to them. While there is no way to completely avoid them, there is a way to overcome them and find success. The way requires a basic understanding of those principles that motivate the human heart, followed by a patient application of those principles.

If you will systematically apply those principles in a well thought out strategy, you will ultimately reap the rewards of your efforts.

Applying the principles is up to you, but today I wanted to share with you a few truths relating to love and romance:

1. “In Love” is a form of dependency. Therefore, if you want someone to be in love with you, you will have to make up your mind to meet their emotional needs so that they can grow dependent upon you. This includes hundreds of hours of listening to them while they talk while you, for the most part, are just attentively silent.

2. People are attracted to independence and repulsed by those who seem to cling. Therefore, to avoid scaring off a potential love you must throw in a lot of apparent aloofness while trying to win them. If you think this may confuse the one you want about your real intentions, you’re right. Sorry, but that’s just the way it needs to be in the early stages of romance.

3. People want what they can’t have. Therefore, you have to hold back form giving yourself completely to the one you want at the first indications they’re starting to become attracted to you. Instead of giving the dog the whole steak at once, feed it to him/her one bite at a time, over an extended period of time.

I’m speaking here of deeply shared feelings and your valuable time. Be careful with how much time and feeling you give to the one you want. As to sexual involvement, that should be withheld until after the marriage vows, or you’ll reduce their incentive to get there. Why buy the cow when the milk is free?

4. People’s conscious decisions are subconsciously motivated. Therefore, don’t be too concerned by what the one you want says they think they want, or acts like they think they want. You should act on principle and eventually they’ll realize that what they really want is you.

5. People are most drawn to a person with a positive and confident self-image. Therefore, resist the temptation to spill your feelings of self-doubt. Nothing is a bigger turn-off than somebody who insists on bursting your bubble and destroying the image they want to have of you.

6. People’s attitudes are really a reflection of what you think of them. Therefore, while not wearing your heart on your sleeve, you must still prove though your actions that your friendship to them is a committed one. This takes time.

7. The longer a relationship grows, the stronger it becomes. Therefore, if you mess up along the way, take comfort in the fact that tomorrow is another day, and the fact that you prove you have lasted and learned from yesterday’s hardships, will in itself increase their feelings of commitment to you in the long run.

by : Tom McKnight

I cannot sleep—my nights glide on
In one unbroken thought of thee;
And when the gloomy shades are gone,
I start the dawning light to see…
And as I watch the rising morn
Gain slowly over the yielding sky,
And mark another day new born,
That glows so brightly—yet must die—
I think how all the hopes we cherish
As transient, though as bright, will be;
And frailest of the hopes that perish
Were mine, that told of love and thee!